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Duality Within

I sincerely hope this finds you well and at peace.  As I write this, I find myself in an age-old struggle deep within me.  I made a in a hurry careless mistake last week.  The mistake did not seem to have a big effect negatively on anything, yet it was a haunting mistake for me.  Because of the mistake, I began to get negative on myself because I did something that was careless.

As this self-inflicted interaction within me was taking place, I found that there was no good coming from it.  In fact, there was collateral damage happening, creating other thoughts to grow that were negative and unhealthy in nature.  Things like anger issues, self-righteousness, negative attitude about life and other thoughts that at one time plagued me all to often.

With good reason, this set me on a spiral down into a deprived place in me.  Even though I am a Christian, I am still a sinner.  Becoming a Christian added something to me, that I do not deserve, called forgiveness a gift from God.  All my imperfection is still intact and working to control me in my Christian forgiveness, doing battle moment by moment.

As I was experiencing this most unsettling time of life a thought occurred to me.  It is something I have told people many times so to do battle with their sin nature.  The principal goes something like this: do not use Satan’s tools to do good!  This whole idea came home to rest on me in a unique way.

What happened was this, what I was trying to pound out and destroy in my own strength, was only serving to spread the seed of discontent, inferiority, and unforgiveness in areas that I was previously overcoming because of God’s forgiveness.  I was using Satan’s tools to do God’s work of sanctification/purification.  (SIGH) What an opportunity to practice what you preach Denny!  Rats!  Found out again!

In being found out by my misconception of God’s grace there was an epiphany moment, sin is extremely subtle influencing us away from God.  Even with experience in living in faith I was fooled.  When I use Satan’s tools to do good I am using a defeated method.  Therefore, whatever I do with Satan’s tools is bound to fail by God’s Victory over sin.  All of Lucifer’s tools are defeated foes.

Now if I applied God’s tools to the same situation of my mistake/sin, (Now I am) tools such as confession, grace, forgiveness, and humility what would have grown out of those God-given tools?  God desires to prosper His children not destroy us.  Each human being is an image bearer of God therefore; Satan has no problem cannibalizing his own followers (unredeemed image bearers) to do his evil, or anyone else who will avail themselves to his power lies and work, even believers in Jesus.

Paul the Apostle prayed three times for a thorn in the flesh/sin to be removed from him.  God answered Paul and said: My grace is sufficient.  Without checks and balances in living it is easy to be duped into a sense of victory when in reality it is God dependent -given victory not self victory.  We say something like: Do not worry God I have got it handled.  I will stamp out sin in my life let me show you how.  God, see how good I am!

Good and perfect gifts come from above and the book of James tells us our own sin nature leads us astray.  It certainly pulled me astray in trying to take care of my own sin.  I am dependent on a merciful God for all the forgiveness I will ever need as I live.

A mixed bag of blessing and failure is how I appear right now to others and me.  However, to my Lord and Savior I am sinless and un-condemned see Romans 8.  I call 8:1 the first three rules of Christianity there is no condemnation, there is no condemnation, there is no condemnation.  It is my choice on how I live, I do not choose to continue to use Satan’s failed tools.  I want to learn to use God’s tools for living well and not be duped into a lesser life.

To be or not to be is not the question!  To live by God’s grace that is wild and wonderful or to have a false sense of control of your life and live by Satan’s rules of pseudo-life is the real question.  God has given each of us one life to figure this out.

Jesus is building a place for you, your choice; do you want fellowship with God forever?  If you answer yes, then ask Jesus in your own words to forgive your sin.  Then start walking with Him, remember you are forgiven, and live like you are thankful for what Jesus did for you.  Yes, salvation can be that simple. (if God has forgiven you, you will see that living in thanks to God is a privilege and joy not a law of any kind) God wants your fellowship so much He died and overcame death to show you the way to overcome sin.

In Christ’s resurrection.



The biggest problem!

As I have pondered life both in being a Christian and not being a Christian.  I realized I have suffered through both conditions!  In one condition there were moments of joy with lots of crazy hurt.  And strangely enough in the other condition even though troubles still happen when I am with Christ Jesus there is a joy that is available in the deepest and darkest of times and the joy wrapped up and hope to see me through.

So, the biggest problem what is it?  Does it have anything to do with money?  Does that have to do with food and shelter?  Does it have to do is clothing?  Does it have anything you do it the way I act?  Well,, kind of yes, yet so much more!

There are some things in this life that I can say yes, I understand how they work.  How do beauty, love, thought, consciousness, decision-making, and a soul or a spirit work or operate in us?  Of these things I’m in contact with most of them every day.  How do I use these things and not understand how they operate or why they are in existence?  How can I ask questions about something I don’t know much about?  The beyond here feeling is common and real gift from God to think.

Can you see a problem in my questions?  I am talking and thinking about things when studied, you come away more confused and bewildered than with good solid answers.  Is there life after death?  Is this a problem?  Well, on one hand you may choose not to believe there’s life after death and all’s we are is here and now.  This presents a problem for me!  If I’m only here now why should not I destroy anything in my way of happiness and kill and maim anyone who tries to get in my way?  If I’m only here now and there is nothing else what’s the point of Kind living?

This dilemma was so beautifully answered for me in my quest for answers to questions that there were no answers for in a person named in Jesus Christ.  Now wait!  Don’t jump to too many conclusions about Jesus just yet.  My first question is, have you personally read about Jesus?  Just so you know reading is not enough with Jesus and his word called the Bible.  There is oh so much more to Jesus than just what you read.  However, what you read about Jesus is truly impressive.

I hope you’re starting to see some problems!  I am finite in all my nature which means I am limited.  As I experience an unlimited God it keeps me in a continual state of awe.  In this state of awe, what I find is a direct line to truth.  I now can see the problem I’ve had all along.  The problem was a deep, deep, deep fear that if I were to last forever, could I live a good enough life to earn some kind of reward for good behavior?  This has provided a wrestling match between God and I that still goes on sometimes today!

The really big problem I had is whether or not I was going to heaven or hell.  Another problem came up when I realized that even though my life has been relatively mild compared to some I have been in contact with.  I still saw failures, I had no right to live in heaven.  This continually presented me with a big problem.  When I meet people and they interact with me something happens between us that is beyond understanding.  We connect!  Some connections are bad, some connections are good, some connections are stupendous and long-lasting and called friends. Is this a taste of God in everyday life.

How can all these things happen if we were just intended for now and there’s nothing else?  Wouldn’t we be totally selfish if there was nothing else?  And if you say no we wouldn’t be selfish, what would be your motivation not to be selfish?  There is only survival of the fittest in nature.  Which translates into kill or be killed!  That’s the best evolution has to offer.  And if there’s no eternity and there’s nothing else then I’m willing to go with evolution and survival of the fittest. There is more than nature. YOU know it deep inside you. Slow down and you will experance it.

So now with my problem in hand, of going to hell and no way on this earth to get out of this problem what am I to do?  I can’t good behave my way out of hell because I slip and I fall off my own standards, not including God’s!  Sounds like I’m in need of some outside help.  But who will step in and help me out I do not deserve to be helped.  Is there someone really that good in the world that I experience?  Well, my friend, my answer is absolutely there is not.

Fortunately, there is someone who operates on a supernatural basis not a natural one!  He is so beyond me that he had to express himself to me as three persons Father, Son, Holy Spirit.  In this expression I came to understand that the three had eternally past, present and future existed in peace and perfect love existence demonstrating pure love in the highest form I have ever experienced.

This love was demonstrated to me through Jesus Christ who became begotten of men.  Jesus is the only begotten or born of man one in the Trinity.  The only reason Jesus had to be born of man was to become vulnerable to Satan’s schemes of death and killing.  Jesus is both God and man.  Because of his vulnerability of manhood he was able to do something for me that I could not do for myself.

Jesus answered the big problem with his life, death, and resurrection the biggest problem I have ever come up against.  And that was the problem of not being able to have a good reason to go to heaven.  What the gospel or good news of Jesus says is this.  Because Jesus loves me and called me (he calls every person who has ever lived to himself no matter what their belief system is) and somehow I answered, yes in my delima, through his grace  Jesus said because of my work, that I did when I lived, I have paid the complete price for your entry into heaven.

Without this one act from a benevolent God I had no hope of ever having eternal life.  He solved my biggest problem by paying in full the price of my entry into heaven.  As I look at it, there was no other way for me to get into heaven.  Religion simply put me under a burden that I could not bear up under or keep.  A relationship with God that I do not deserve, took care of everything that I had to worry about.  This is the rest offered to me to live in as a believer in Jesus Christ.  A paid for in full sonship to the God that loves me and gave himself for me.

Now, with the perspective of hell being taking care of, I find that I see other problems, no matter how big or how badly they hurt as much smaller when compared to hell.  Now you may ask how do I pay for such a rest as Jesus offered.  The simple answer is I can’t and you can’t.  It has already been paid for by Jesus Christ on his cross where every bad thing that has ever been or happened has purchased and put under the control of God.

No evil ever comes from God.  However, God commands evil because he bought and paid for it and put it under his control.  Therefore I have no worry about the fallenness and hurt that goes on around me and happens to me because my Heavenly Father is taking care of all of it.  For now he has allowed the wheat and the weeds sometimes called tares in the Bible to grow together.  They (PROBLEMS) will continually call us to make the decision whether or not we believe in God or not.  Every time something good happens every time something bad happens we are faced with the challenge of deciding whether or not God exists or not. Is God good in what happened?  What do you say?

As much as God gets blamed for all the bad things that ever happen, it seems Satan has a very good smokescreen for his actions.  The question is where is God when bad things happen?  God is with each and every person that something bad happens to.  The real question is; what is the person that the bad thing is happening to doing with God.  God will never force that person to believe in him.  Instead God has given us a free will to make the choice to believe in him or not.

Our choice that we make for or against God never diminishes his love for us.  What a choice does is limit how much God can do for us in our eternity.  Yes, God has chosen to limit himself to your decision about him.  If you accept his call and say yes to Jesus he can then by your choice destroy all evil around you and replace it with righteousness and purity.  If you choose not to accept Jesus and his gift of the gospel, he will honor your choice and not force you into relationship with him.

Yes, you can opt. out of God’s paid in full forgivness program  er,  better word relationship……

If you want your biggest problems  takien care of, ask God to help you hear and answer him.  You may call yourself into a fiery trial to see God.  You may call yourself into a time of blessing.  However, God is not above blending both of these two exterams together in a very special formula, formulated just for you to activate your entire person to see God and answer his call.  God is not controllable, nor is he predictable!  But he understands you inside and out and knows what you need to happen in life to bring out the very best parts of you that he has put into you.

Therefore through the gospel of Jesus Christ I understand more and more each and every day however, little each and every day, but more each and every day that I can count everything loss that wasn’t for Jesus Christ.

No, I do not behave, work, or act like a good person to get into heaven.  I look at the gospel and the love that is presented to me and it by Jesus Christ and then do my best to imitate it in some way.  This is the only way I know to bring Jesus Christ to a world who is lost, dying, and hurting.

Lord my hope. Please use me to scatter your good seed everywhere I go. Help me do this in your strength and your way. Let me not become proud if you use me to do your good work. Teach me to give you all the honor and glory in all you do for me and through me.

in JESUS name,


What do you say?

Learning to rest in Christ,


Poison Ivy

Poison Ivy is consistent with the fall of man. No matter how it affects us we are never untouched by it’s effect on us. We do our best to avoid the poison, but find it nagging us to hate it and eradicate it. Yet, it still pops up unseen and unnoticed until it shows it self in a rash of great discomfort on or one near us.

Have you ever witnessed the fall impact a loved one? A much enjoyed friend or fellow worker? Ever watch the news on TV or listen on the radio? Do you ever wonder about why we want to move away from trouble spots and protect our selves? Ever move away just to find a new kind of trouble that was hidden or unknown?

Yes! To all the above questions and more! I have lost hope at times during encounters with the affects of the fall of man. Even though I believe in Christ as my only Hope in this world I still look away from God at times. There is  a Love-hate relationship with life itself as good or bad passes into and through your life.

I’m not even talking about the things are my opinion bad. I speak of the things that are truly evil and bad. Things that we can get agreement on throughout the world that they are bad. For example, floods that kill people, tsunamis that kill people, meteors it just drop out of the sky and hurt people or killed them, mechanical structures or devices that come apart causing loss of life, and there is a host of other things that I have not even touched on.

Most of what I’ve talked about her natural disasters, parts of the machine made from nature that fail. In spite of the fact that there are failures, and nature will rear its head and do what it wants when it wants, we move on as if were impervious and it will not happen to us on most days. Reality?

As a Christian all these things are in play for me as well. God has not stepped in between me and the fallenness of this world to protect me. Yet, since my God is not limited I find a peace in seeing all these bad things and knowing about them yet, LIVING through them.

It is not that I believe I will be delivered around the pain that evil causes. But I will never be alone in any evil that comes my way. There will be a light to follow and away to walk through the trouble to the other side. And on the other side I will have a deeper vision of who God is and how he works me through the troubles of life.

The biggest lie have ever been told was that doing it your way was the tough courageous thing to do. I have found that this was a folly and a step into a fantasy that was never satisfied. The most courageous thing I’ve ever done is to attempt to follow Jesus and live his way. The reality of the pain of this world is crushing to me. But just as true in all my despair over the pain of life there is a hope that is beyond compare.

This hope is the reality of what Jesus did for us in proof of how much he loves us. Whether you believe in God or not, God continues to give us air to breathe, food eat, a place to live, and he gives all of us his image so that we can experience him.

Are you experiencing a taste of love. joy, Peace, beauty? I promise you God is calling you to him through these experiences. But, he has given you a free choice to reject him. The most perilous decision you have ever made is what you do with Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ has never ask you to do anything bad or evil.

Jesus came to deliver you from this poison ivy world. Jesus wants you to live with a hope in spite of everything this world dishes out to you. Jesus knows everything about you and he desires to spend the rest of eternity with you. No matter how bad you are you think you are his good can consume all of it and remove it from your record.

I invite you to walk with God for a while. Don’t go by what other people say it is your decision, to let others tell you what to do is not wise. Especially me, do not do what I say, this is an invitation from God not me.

You don’t even have to RSVP! Just show up at his step and request the privilege of getting to know him, he always says yes. Jesus loves you, come to him as you are. Please do not try to hide who you are to him just be honest and real. This will help you transition into the reality of God’s love.

If you’re up for an adventure you just said yes. If you want the same old same old pretend maverick kind of life you said no. God still loves you and has his grace on you. If you said yes you’re on an adventure of discovering his mercies which are and last forever.

In Christ,

Ramblings of a believer!

Hello all!!!

How is the good Lord treating you today? If you are like me He is treating you much better than we deserve. With that said, as I’ve listen to good teachers of the word they usually say something to this effect , apply much of God’s word to yourself and then learn from others…. apply to self liberally, as all Christianity should live as Jesus did, from inside yourself to the outward person…

As I write my blog I am the first one in line to receive anything that I say. I do not say I am perfect at applying it but I certainly do attempt to apply to my life. Through the Holy Spirit when I submit to him the situation usually works out pretty well, under my own power, there is no power. We get a clean Heart by interaction with God not self-effort.

So why won’t God allow us to apply seemingly good changes to our lives unless He is empowering us? Is it because we have gone our own way so much, he must let us fail to teach us to trust Him? Are there lessons to be learned in following and trusting Him in all things as we learn? Is he teaching me to listen to his voice and not other similar sounding unction’s in my conscience? Do I expect God to lead me like a boss at work verbatim and spelled out on what I’m supposed to do?

I for one am glad that God does not micromanage me! Then I would be mechanical in my love of God and others. But, I am sure glad he is with me at all times as He teaches me to straighten my  crooked free will to His  perfect Standard. In recent years, I have had actions and thoughts that I’ve never had before cross through my mind Powerful and Free.

Some of the thoughts made me very nervous, some, I was shocked that they were in me! Some produced trouble for me, but I did not mind because it was a good and right way. Some I should think most, I’ve had to listen to after it was said, then I learned biblical concepts from it. (strange to listen to yourself and what you said in learning)

Following the Lord is not an exact science! But it is a learning to flow with God and trusting the flow and gentle control that he would so gently offer you through His Suggestion. The ideas Never to do harm, but to encourage, challenge and tend to provoke to love and good works, for God’s honor and glory.

Learn my Friends, God is calling you into His will, but will always give you your choice to follow Him or not.  Well enough for my ramblings and free thoughts.

As you think of our Lord this week send up a prayer for our world and our fellow believers that serve on the field the Lord lead them to. Gods Workers are few and harvest great and at hand. Your prayers fill in some of the pitfalls we will encounter in God’s work. The same is true of the folks you know and serve with in the Church of Jesus.

We gather in His name and around His name only in truest praise and humility.  Be an ambassador of Christ Jesus as you go about your given duties. Your salt will bring flavor to your surroundings, making others thirsty. Thus giving opportunity for all to praise and glorify our King in learning and more wonderful ways, because you follow like Jesus.

Be a Blessing!


Banner meaning

The banner chosen has an owl pictured. The owl in human folklore is equated to wisdom mostly because of its forward facing eyes and flat face. This evaluation would agree well with God’s evaluation of humanity in being very good.

We are very good because we are image bearers of God, not God, but image bearers of God.

In the talons of this owl there is the W. For me the W stands for wisdom of the word of God. I never expect any of my posts to completely grasp any person but I do hope there are elements, phrases, sentences, or general ideas that will touch you in some way shape or form for the good.

Whether you agree or disagree with me, you are intensely loved by God. The real question that remains are what are you going to do with that love, are you going to deny it.(This is your free will choice) or are you going to accept the gift that is in the sense it is too good to be true! But is True!

The good news or gospel is that God’s gift is true and in reality not fantasy. Because of this invisible truth there is an empty Talon on the owl to grasp an invisible God that exists for all eternity yet unseen by man in many respects. Maybe because God chose to manifest Himself through imperfect people like me.

Yes, God wants to grasp both worlds both the visible and invisible. But left alone and forsaken by this invisible God man is not. As the owl grasps the letter W, I hope there is an element of wisdom that you will grasp to help you learn how God interacts with man.

Temptations are common”there has no temptation taking you but such as is common to man. But God is faithful and will not suffer you to be tempted above that you are able. But will with the temptation also make a way of escape.” With this commonness in mind I hope there will be different elements of my blogging walk that will encourage you.

Hopefully a story will help you grasp in your talons  in a concept or idea of the Gospel. And use the Gospel to assist you walking with a truly awesome God that I will never be able to explain in completeness, I am finite. I know he loves you no matter what you have done or failed or succeeded at.

His whole ministry is about reconciliation with each  soul and every person ever born to an awesome and holy God. Even if you do not believe in God and stumble upon his principles to live by you will have good success because God works that way. He is not exclusive to believers only, His ways are truth. Don’t be fooled, you must accept the gift.

He will not cause his principles not to work for the unsaved! Yet in this fallen world there is not a mechanical or ideology or method of living even in God’s way that protects you from all the wrong and hurt that is going on in this old world.

But if you are able to begin the journey on trusting God and building a faith in him no matter how small the faith, you will be entering into a world of abundance and life. No you may not win the lottery and become rich in money wealth but you will be spiritually rich.

This is when you really shine in the world when you are aglow with the true Light of the World, so Shine on in Jesus’s name. Friend, as I write these things my hope is that you do not find the right answers but you find each and every person has a call to walk with God.

Exercising their freewill most walks have aspects that are similar to yours, not identical, in the similarity of their story they can help each and every one of us walk for the glory of Jesus Christ. All the while practicing fellowship with God and people.

My hope is that your talons grasp spiritual truth from these writings, no matter how poorly written they are, so that you can apply God to your life more effectively because of the vocabulary/experience that was given from anther’s testimony of their experience with God.

My dear friend walk worthy of the Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for He is worthy. As I write these things can’t help but think of the section of Scripture that says “God is true and every man a liar” I am a man,,,!

A man who does not claim self-rightness, but does claim righteousness because that’s what Jesus died on the cross to give me. I have accepted the gift of his righteousness into my life by saying yes to His call.

Therefore, I write these things to assist anyone who is in need of assistance to encourage anyone who needs encouragements to walk alongside those who are discouraged and needs a friend.

One thing for sure if any good comes out of any of these blogs it will be because “Good and perfect gifts come from above” never from me. I am dependent on the blood of Jesus Christ for any goodness that comes out of me.

I return any good that comes from this to God and the bad I turn to God and give it to him because I need to be cleansed from it.

To God be all glory, for God has shed His grace on me. Hope you have a blessed day and you understand why I chose an owl with talons firmly grasp around wisdom both heavenly, earthly represented by the wise owl. The owl is a personification, of a patient hunter that would dine on Godly wisdom and it would become part of them deeply changing themselves for the good and the glory of God.

Another start post from Denny. Shalom!